There are some moments when I know exactly what I need. Usually it is not a good sign, as it is not a good sign when I am cleaning like crazy or being too quiet.
So. Right now I need you next to me. I need you telling me all that bullshit about everything going to be alright, about me being this strong woman who will always manage. I need to cry so that you can see my tears, I need to be cold and small and scared so that you can take care of me.
But yeah.. that is not possible now. So I have two options – tell you all this in an almost freaking out voice, letting all my demons come out and make a few steps backwards. Or I can try to rise and walk with pain.
Let’s see what happens.
